To everyone in Godfall, especially to the contestants and everyone who was upset at the critiques, I very much sincerely apologize.
During the week that was allotted to the judges for judging, I was planning on slowly working my way through the entries, giving myself enough time to give each the attention and the critique it deserved. What I hadn't planned on was that week being absolutely nuts and suddenly full of things I needed to do. All week, work has been nuts; we've been running tests and my boss assigned me to a couple of them to help out. After work, I had to make a bunch of preparations for my college orientation taking place on Wednesday. Wednesday, the orientation ran all day, Thursday, I worked then came home and had to order all of my textbooks, and Friday, I worked on reading and writing critiques for the entries almost straight through from 7 AM to 3 AM the next day. This long, straight stretch of working led to my critiques becoming more jarbled and less professional as I went on and became more and more tired.
What it boils down to is that I did not manage my time well. What I should have done was read the entries as they came in, and worked on pre-critiques so all I would have to do was finish and polish them when the time came. This lack of time management also lead to some very off-kilter critiques. I apologize to all of the contestants. As a judge, you deserved better from me. At one point, I was running out of time, and just started noting down the, to me, most glaring mistakes or strengths, leading to sometimes one-sided critiques which really didn't have any qualities of a proper critique. If I had had another day, I would've had time to go back and revise, look at, and write something a little more in-depth and accurate, so again, I apologize for my lack of time management.
In this contest's infancy, when it was still just an idea being mulled around by Click, I offered assistance in judging if she ever were to need a judge. To my surprise, she got back to me on it, and I was accepted as part of the team. I wanted to do you good, and I wanted to be active and there with you the whole way, but slowly, I stopped visiting the chat every day, and life took over like it tends to do. The art jams were always on nights that didn't work for me, and I felt kind of out of the loop. That one, I can't blame anyone but myself for.
All that said, I'm going to be taking a break from doing anything with OCT's for a while. I need to mature more as a person and an artist, I think, before I'm ready or qualified enough to try again. I would very much like to stick around to see what happens with Godfall, because I still love this tournament, though I haven't given it the attention it so well deserves. If you'll have me, I'd love to still pop in the chat every once in a while and cheer everyone on.
I'm so sorry I let you all down.